My CaReLeSs WhIsPeR-Think UNIT TRUST, Think Agnes

Not a very good year. Well, can it be a good year when I’ve lost a good fren? No.
It has been about half a year now, sometimes it feels like you’re still around...somewhere. We can feel your presence, somehow. May you be happy, wherever you are...pls be.

Work
The year didn’t start off too well. Was involved in a work assignment where 2 of my group members sort of ‘personal-attacked’ me. I dun care now, coz that showed me their true colors and it was a good lesson afterall, wasn’t it? One of them is fine with me now, we’re still working together in the same dept, she needs my help with certain things and vice versa. Sometimes we’d still share some personal stories but of coz not every single thing I’d tell. The other one was history. I told her that both of us could be in the wrong, so why not juz wipe it off and give the friendship a second survival chance? Well..i guess she can never swallow the fact that she was also in the wrong, her silence to me was a NO. Fine. Now I dun feel any bad about it anymore :) I shall walk away a winner, not a loser ultimately.

My employee survey assignment. Pic shown is juz about 5% of the population though. We covered for about 1000plus which was an achievement.

COO resigned in March. Was very upset. Missed it? Go to my 2007 archive and you’ll read a whole lot more there. After he left the company, the special position he created for me went down the drain as well. (juz to share, we are still friends now, good and yet better having a friend this way than in the workplace) In May, I got into Employee Relations (ER) section instead. This section deals with labour laws, industrial relations matters, resignation, investigation etc. I find it a very challenging HR scope. Exit interviews are kinda cool. I get to know more frens, more insider info, more insights during the sessions. Can you believe I even had people asking for my number too. Hahaha..funny!

I got an offer from another company. I dun think I have mentioned this before. Some of you ppl already know which one. Quite disappointed that they withdrew the offer without informing me (becoz of I was ‘late’), but then I was very glad that I had the offer, as it proved my employability and my value to the HR market already. Good to know. At least.

Work is good recently. I dun dread going to work, and I’m laufing everyday at work.

Friends
Oh this is interesting. There are 2 new frens that I have made this year and they are 2 of the best things in my life so far. My best frens are still with me going thru the ups and downs, so thanks again.

Some frens changed, I think it’s normal. People changed. They forgot what is important and what’s not ; what is real and what’s not. It’s like their sights got blurred by smth. I dun have any right to do anything about it. Even if I can, will people appreciate your good intentions? I can tell you from experiences, no. So in the end, why say?

Referring to my last 2 entry “Reason, Season and Lifetime”, it actually help explained a lil bit of the story. Sometimes they din really leave, its juz that they are sort of ‘taking a break’. I alwiz think that to maintain a good friendship both parties play a part. It takes two to tango, you see. You cant expect me to be the one initiating chats everytime, sms first all the time, etc. Unfortunately, I get tired too. I would feel that if you care the same way, you’d beep my phone too by dropping me a simple ‘Hi’. It’d be enuf to make me happy. I’m still trying hard to understand what it means by ‘busy’. Maybe I’m not busy enuf to understand busy. Then again, I wonder if taking out a minute to forward an sms is very demanding..hmm. Conclusion? In Chinese they say ‘juz see you got heart or not only” True?

I will be especially sad when I truly cherish smth, tried my best to keep it, but it didn’t turn out to be the way I hope it’d be. You might tell me, that’s life. Well, sadly I’ll have to agree.

Holiday Trip
Been to Bukit Tinggi. I’m hoping to explore oversea in year 2008. Cross finger.
I know KL people are not so ‘ghairah ‘ about eye on msia, as I was told, haha.

Cubic Activities
I learned ballroom dance organized by Cubic Sports and Recreation for about 3 months. Not gonna continue as they had to close the class due to poor participation from staff. Hmm actually I am also slowing losing my passion for it haha, it’s not easy to remember all the steps man. I guess it’d take a hell lot of practice to remember. Too bad I dun really practice ;p

Xmas CelebrationI finally had the chance to be in the committee. I couldn’t when I was in training section coz bla bla bla. (pics in frenster)

The next day I was told I look like a Korean Expat (in cubic)


The one day I was told I look like a Chindian
You cant see clearly in the pic. Due to that sticker we sticked on our forehead.

The person whose name had been mentioned the most time in my blog this year.
Ready for the never-seen-before photo? You asked which one? Hmmm..guess on.

Funniest picture of the year
I still dunno what kind posing effect he was expecting to have until today.

Favourite frenster shout-out creation
“It’s ok if you dun remember to invite me in your umbrella on a sunny day, but I will still invite you to stand under mine when it’s raining”

I have made a slight modification to it lately. “It’s ok if you dun remember to invite me in your umbrella on a sunny day, but I will still invite you to stand under mine when it’s raining, IF only there is still space left. BUT if you have been nice to me, I’d even let you take my spot under the umbrella and I dun mind a single bit to stand in the rain instead”

Worst, most obvious, and most heartbreaking question to answer
“Do you think I should go?” I had to say YES eventhough I really dun wanna say it.

Movie of the year
Transformer

The saddest/sexiet word softly uttered to me
“Be strong”

Best thing heard (not exact words though)
“You’re smart. Only smart people get to sit here and talk to me.”

Most ridiculous thing heard
“Hey I tell you smth la...you know or not...he told Miss A that he dislikes you le”

Most embarrassing moment
Mentioned already that it was embarrassing. So dun ask haha. But I never regret it, coz I din fake myself and I was being real. It’s just the helpless me :)

Best New Gadget
My Sony Ericsson K810i Cybershot

These are some of the highlights of 2007. With a sense of regret, I have to say that I must filter many times before I typed something, thinking if this and that are appropriate to put in blog and if they are necessary for sharing...hehe. Not all.

For more photos, you may want to check in the archive or in my friendster la. Thanks for being a loyal reader and thanks for your support of my careless whisper. I can’t promise frequent entries now, but I will try my best to keep you updated about myself. Oh btw, juz to say, I’m still a fan of Daniel Lee...yes STILL, hahaha. Happy New Year 2008, everybody!

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念裏挣扎
你说会记得我 还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已
忘了我 快向快乐出发

People always come into your life for a reason, a season and a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for a reason, you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilleed; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.

LIFETIME, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being part of my life.....

I went for my frens' bday invitation belanja at Havana last sat and it wasa nice one catching up with those frens whom I have not seen for a while.Gathering like this always reminds me of our times in MMU. I really miss those hang-outs.

Frens asked about workplace stories. Hmm..like I said, only got good stories recently. Good as in no more politics or backstabbing involving me (or at least not I know of la) The water was calm and quiet again. Maybe not being the leader of some specially assigned
management projects contributes to that. Not gonna look back too much, useless. But true colors seen, that's the main lesson.

Lately, going to work has been ok. My current manager gives me additional tasks to do sometimes. But I somehow will miss working with my ex-manager and my COO. As mentioned before, tough times but I luv the challenges.

Ah yeah, there is a new colleague in my dept. She is from Sarawak and we click. Sama wavelength, sama-sama gila at times. Laugh like nobody business, talk hell lots of nonsense etc. BUT I always remind myself the things that happened between me and my project member last year. I kena paku before, so I will alwiz watch out for nails when I walk. Besides, I will choose to safeguard myself and my job first.

I have registered for Futsal, organized by Cubic Sports and Recreation Unit. Not sure when it will commence but am so looking forward to it.Finally I get to play football. Wondering if I will be selected to represent Cubic in upcoming tournaments. Hahaha. Mimpi.

I dunno what else to blog about man. There are things I wanna blog but not encouraged. Damn. 2 issues actually. Nah, juz forget about it. One of the issues tak boleh cakap, nanti ada orang yg akan terasa. Although its not my fault to say such thing coz it really happened...not that I created it or what, then again, I dun wan that seseorang yg makan cili tu terasa pedas.

People changed, somewhat doesn't seem to be for the better. Who am I to stop them afterall...cheers! Hahaha!

What updates you all want to read about ah? Let me think..hmm..achieving my highest 156 friendster profile views in Nov?? Straighten (not rebonding) my hair in Sep coz I was too lazy to maintain my curls adi? Did not go see Nadal's sweaty arms? Not going for MCR concert? Always looking forward to Arsenal's defeat? Thinking of what to buy for xmas 'gift-exchange' game with colleagues? Imagining myself doing xmas and cny shopping in KL already at the Year End Sale? Feeling very excited as Christmas is approaching?Hahaha..yeah that's about it, I guess.

Till I manage to think of things to update and have the mood to blog again....see ya!